Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Love Letter

Dear Love,

I don't know what to do.

I don't want to sound ungrateful. Really! I have the most awesome, loving friends and family. I know how lucky I am. I do. I do. I've even had some super great boyfriends over the years. Even the closeted gay one who sent me three days of flowers on Valentine's Day. Or the one who planned the romantic French picnic complete with handmade road signs in French to guide our way. Or the one who wrote me poems. And the other who sang me songs. Or the one who made me laugh so hard I spit out my drink, often. And that one who slow danced with me at the ocean, us drenched in the light from the headlight beams, swaying to the sounds of Frank Sinatra.

There has been romance and love and butterfly stomachs. And I appreciate it. And I miss it.

I've been trying diligently to be ready for the next big thing. I've read books and tested out theories and kissed a few frogs. I have made lists. I have debated the intricacies of your temperament, my temperament (we are both so fickle), the mind-boggle that is human communication . . . I even learned to sing Come Rain or Come Shine just in case the time would come when there would be someone worthy to sing it to.

Where is he?

I was just wondering if you have a plan? Do you have an outline you can send me? I need tips. Love tips from the master. I like to plan ahead and on this one, I keep coming up empty. It really is driving me a bit nuts.

And if you can't help, can you send this over to Patience? She might have something to say about all this.

Thanks,
Sizzle

27 comments:

Anonymous said...

Love comes when you least expect it. Live like there is no tomorrow, and the rest will take care of itself.

Kimmy said...

Stop by and see some Valentine ideas for singles...will make for a good laugh or two. (then you can get back to missing love)

gronce said...

anonymous can shove it.

Will said...

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

Remember: St.Valentine was killed for promoting marriage.

jeopardygirl said...

sizz, Happy Valentine's Day!

My friend, Ken, says the lighting hits you from out of the blue, and no matter what, you can't really prepare for it. Here's hoping Love will find you again soon.

ocg said...

Bleck on love...

I think we are all of us celebrating "single's Awareness Day" are posting something similar today...

The joy...

Ummm... Sizz? Would you be... could you be my Valentine?

;-)

ocg said...

AND

hahahaha, gronce is hilarious!

Kevin said...

Happy V-Day Sizzle.

That was a great letter. And, yes, it does happen. I was a skeptic as well. I figured I would be alone the rest of my life. But I'm now going on five years of marriage and couldn't be happier. All this despite my cynical nature. Go fig, eh?

goldmoon said...

Ah, Siz. You'll find somebody! The universe is trying to find that PERFECT PERSON!!!

Bill said...

I can't really comment on this because I know myself too well and that means I know how full of horseshit I am. And there is nothing more annoying than a hypocrite. So how about some quotes? Not sure what it all means but I like both of these:

Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness.
- Bertrand Russell -

The important thing was to love rather than to be loved.
- W. Somerset Maugham -

Mrs. Ca said...

Just wanted to stop by and wish you a happy Valentine's Day! I'm sure however you celebrate or un-celebrate it, it will be great. Or, at least, drink some pink champagne, because I'm convinced that is the best way to celebrate anything.

Bre said...

I read this and thought, "yes! That's exactly it!"

I know I shouldn't be complaining, because I do have a lot going for me, but I still don't have that... thing.

So, thanks for putting it into words! :)

Anonymous said...

my sweater and i love you.

gorillabuns said...

dear sizzle,

you can't plan like a date in your calendar on love. it mysteriously shows up.

and patience is highly overrated.

signed,

love

Love said...

Hello Sizzle... Love here.

Got your letter. Don't worry... everything is going according to plan. In fact you may be pleasantly surprised.

Passed your note onto Patience, she'll be contacting you shortly.

Hang in there kiddo.

Love,

Love

alissa said...

I'm not going to tell you to be patient, it's going to happen, because I don't think that's what you want to hear. Some days you don't want comments from a bunch of optimists who've found love. You want someone to jump in your mud puddle with you!

So instead I'm going to say - I know it's hard, and I know that you want this more than anything. I'm going to wish for you all of your heart's desires. You deserve it Sizz!

This is me, in your mud puddle :)

Melissa said...

Ok, here it is. I have no advice on this because I'm next to you paddling the same boat. All those people that tell you to live your life to the fullest because that is the only way love will find you, are mostly full of shit.

You live your life to the fullest because it's the only shot you get. Love does not come out of the clear blue, attraction might, infatuation does, lust ALWAYS does, but not love. Love is the slow building of something special, but it usually begins with attraction, infatuation or lust. So the next time you get one of those feelings take a look at it... see what might be there.

You are totally worth it, don't you dare forget that part.

Sizzle said...

i feel the love. . .from all of you.

xoxox,
sizz

Bob Merrick said...

Dear Love...

I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
I've heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'forgive me'
I've heard it all before
And I can't take it anymore

You're not half the man you think you are
Save your words because you've gone too far
I've listened to your lies and all your stories (Listen to your stories)
You're not half the man you'd like to be

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
I've heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'forgive me'
I've seen it all before
And I can't take it anymore

Don't explain yourself cause talk is cheap
There's more important things than hearing you speak
Mistake me cause I made it so convenient
Don't explain yourself, you'll never see

Forgive me...

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
I've heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'forgive me'
I've seen it all before
And I can't take it anymore

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
(Don't explain yourself cause talk is cheap)
I've heard it all before, And I can take care of myself
(There's more important things than hearing you speak)
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'forgive me'

I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before

Impatiently waiting,

Bob

Paul said...

He totally has a plan.

Unfortunately, he likes to take his sweet time.

But hang in there and Happy V Day, Sizzle!

Jacynth said...

Love will come and tap you on the head when you're drunk and not paying attention. And then, it will come again. Have no fear. Happy Vday!

Nihilistic said...

Home made French signs...how cute! WHEN you get married I wanna come to the wedding ok?? Cause I'm gonna read this letter at your wedding and at the end of the letter, I'm going to end it with "And then love brought (Insert cute, considerate, sexy, talented, Rich guy whose good enough for Sizzle Name here).

D'Andre said...

Happy V-day Sizzle...

erin said...

happy valentine's day!

i hope love comes for you soon, but until then enjoy the love that you've got! (i need to take my own advice)

Jenny said...

omg. i cannot believe i am going to quote John Mayer...

so as he announces -love song for no one- he says:

"This is a song about talking to the person you haven't even met yet. Maybe they're rolling around in the hay with someone else, but they're not as good as you'll be. You just gotta wait your turn: she's out there, he's out there, they're just learning what to contrast you against."

yep. love is just around the corner for you, sizzle...i feel it in my bones.

Moonchild said...

I'm wishing the very same thing. Unfortunately I've never had a guy send me anything but a cheap card. You should be lucky or count yourself lucky you've experienced many great things in the past. Be well.

Maxwell Thomas Wastler said...

Sizz,

You made it. Listen to that wonderful song again; heck listen to the entire Harold Arlen catalogue. You'll see he wasn't too happen in love, either.

He was impatient, married the first crazy, beautiful woman to come along, and was perpetually tortured. You, on the other hand, who has taken her time, weighed life for what its worth, won't make that mistake. You'll find it. I have faith.