Shut Up In My Head
This is very true:
The stress of being with others could make you feel like taking time to be alone to regroup today. Perhaps because you have been so involved in your previous activities, you may be feeling emotionally drained and maybe even moody. Spending time alone in quiet reflection or meditation today might help you to feel more at ease with your own emotions and could give you the energy you need to be with others later on. While sitting in meditation, you might wish to watch your own feelings as they arise and pass. You may notice that your feelings of discomfort are not the result of your immediate environment, but are simply habitual thoughts that come into your mind. Seeing this might make it easier for you to recognize that your unease does not necessarily come from being with others, but rather from your sensitivity to your everyday thoughts. -Daily Om
Habitual thoughts? When I really slow down and think about it they include:
- Feeling unattractive and uncomfortable in my own skin.
- Missing my Dad and regretting our relationship.
- Wishing I could stop being a control freak for one minute so I can enjoy my life sans the perfect plan.
- Feeling alone and lacking hope that I will ever find someone to share my life with.
I'm definitely feeling ultra-sensitive lately. I mean, come on, I cried at the "death" scene in Click. Click! That's a comedy! WTF is wrong with me? Maybe it's just the post-holiday blues. . .
15 comments:
2 years ago, i was 33 i felt that i would never meet someone... when all your friends are dating, married, and/or having kids - it was more than i could bear at times... but i stuck to my guns and honestly knew that when the time was right, i would meet 'him' and i did... and we've been together ever since... funny how i looked for months/years and on the day i gave up, we met online... weird...
keep your chin up - the holidays, even though covered w/bright lights and christmas music, can be hard but a new year is coming... :o)
kill me when you get the chance.
I'm pretty much family'd out...I'm going home early.
((((((HUGS)))))))
It's all so overwhelming - the holidays, family, past memories. Be kind to yourself. I wish I could take a day alone to regroup!
cheers to "the holidays" being almost over.... they turn me into a teary, neurotic mess
I'm right next to you in this boat. It's been one hella-long holiday season this year and it's time to bring it to an end.
And I know the feeling of thinking you are [] this close to having what you want only to have to walk away.
*Hugs*
I think a lot of people have similar feelings post-holidays. I've noticed myself being on edge and irritable the past couple of days.
Alone time. It's a good thing.
Merry Christmas! I hope 2007 is a fabulous year for you.
I had a few tears coming down as well. Don't beat yourself up for that.
"The stress of being with others could make you feel like taking time to be alone to regroup today."
Sounds like Christmas. Damn the lack of internet access and the lack of a fridge full of Natty Boh!
These are doubts we all have, as I said to you last night. Buck up, li'l camper. You're a major catch.
Rather than looking into the future and trying to understand all that may or may not be ahead, I think this time of the year is the best time to look into the past. The good times, the bad times, the successes, the failures. Nothing makes me look forward to the next year more than taking a minute to remember just how far I've come.
"Seeing this might make it easier for you to recognize that your unease does not necessarily come from being with others, but rather from your sensitivity to your everyday thoughts."
oh man, I did a double-take when I read that. Not a literal one, more of a stop breathing one. Just hit me hard since it feels so apt. Habitual thoughts? hell, yeah. It's just so easy to lose sight that it may be my thoughts and not the company of others that makes me brood or twitchy or want to be alone.
Here's to breaking out of negative mental ruts in the future.
oooh, so I'm not alone in my funk. Thanks...
This weekend I'm implementing the "hiding out under the covers of my bed 'till Tuesday" strategy. 'Cause contact with new people actually hurts right now.
Yet I have resolved to put on my happy face the minute the pumpkins arrive from the tyrannical X's house. 'Cause that's my job.
Best wishes to you. Crying is healthy and cathartic and helps us process. Go for it. I could use a good cry myself. I might just do that from under my covers.
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