This is very true:
The stress of being with others could make you feel like taking time to be alone to regroup today. Perhaps because you have been so involved in your previous activities, you may be feeling emotionally drained and maybe even moody. Spending time alone in quiet reflection or meditation today might help you to feel more at ease with your own emotions and could give you the energy you need to be with others later on. While sitting in meditation, you might wish to watch your own feelings as they arise and pass. You may notice that your feelings of discomfort are not the result of your immediate environment, but are simply habitual thoughts that come into your mind. Seeing this might make it easier for you to recognize that your unease does not necessarily come from being with others, but rather from your sensitivity to your everyday thoughts. -Daily Om
Habitual thoughts? When I really slow down and think about it they include:
- Feeling unattractive and uncomfortable in my own skin.
- Missing my Dad and regretting our relationship.
- Wishing I could stop being a control freak for one minute so I can enjoy my life sans the perfect plan.
- Feeling alone and lacking hope that I will ever find someone to share my life with.
I'm definitely feeling ultra-sensitive lately. I mean, come on, I cried at the "death" scene in Click. Click! That's a comedy! WTF is wrong with me? Maybe it's just the post-holiday blues. . .