Who Cares If I Am Making Sense?

I can't talk about the book anymore this week. It's bringing me too deep into myself and I need to perk up. I've got Supple flying into town today and my Mom arrived last night. There are people to see and things to do and there is just no time for mini-meltdowns, ya see? Even typing that makes me think how classic child of an alcoholic I am. People pleaser! Put on a good show! Ahem!

Excuse me, Brain? Can you just go on vacation for a few days? I'd like to not be a neurotic mess while there are guests here. Thanks.

I forgot to tell you guys that the other day I was wearing a white skirt. It's kind of flowy-ish, goes right below my knees. It's my one acquiescence into this whole gypsy '80s craptastic fashion disaster. So I used the "facilities" and walked up to wash my hands. Usually there is no one in the bathroom but for some reason there were 3 people plus me in there. As I was washing my hands my new co-worker entered and said something towards me but I didn't catch it. As I reached for the paper towels I felt a bit of a breeze on my behind. That's when I discovered I had inadvertently tucked my flowy-flow skirt into my underwears. Awesome. Thank god I didn't walk out the door like that! But now when I see this coworker? Yeah, all I can think of is that she saw my underwears. And they weren't even my cute ones.

I've been avoiding P since he met my friends on Monday. I've decided no big conversations are allowed to happen until my PMS has passed. I do very stupid things when I am suffering The Mean Reds. He thinks I am just being hermitgirl again. I kinda am. I've been bringing up the "just friends" thing and his response continues to be: "No!" Or like yesterday when he leaves a note at my house- a cut out red heart with the words, "I like you!" on it. Oh man. But I tell ya, if I don't see some emotional depth from him soon I'll have to lay down the Sizzle law. I mean, hello, I know it's been awhile since I was in a relationship with anyone but last time I checked both people had to have a say in being in said relationship. The rules haven't changed while I was out of the dating pool have they?

I'm going to two shows this weekend. How concertriffic is that? Tonight is Madeleine Peyroux with Supple and Sunday is Sara Bareilles. I'll be going all by my lonesome to Sunday's show but it's good for character-building. Or so they say.

I'm all over the map people. Thanks for dealing with me.