I've started and erased four posts so far. That's how it has been lately. I can't come up with something cohesive because my mind is all over the place. I am thinking about jobs, rentals, the garage sale, plans with friends, the long list of things to accomplish at my job before I can train the new hire. Oh right- I have to hire that person too. Oh right, they are supposed to start next week.
I spent yesterday putting out brush fires at the office. It sucked and by the time I got home, I was brain dead and exhausted. The only things to cure me were vino and froyo and an early bed time. I could write quite a best seller based on the last four years at my agency. The shit that goes down there! The drama after drama. You'd think I'd been working on the set of Days of Our Lives, not a non-profit.
We had new neighbors for about 5 days but they've already moved on. By new neighbors I mean that a threesome in their dilapidated RV that broke down next to our house. By move on I mean they must have pushed the dead RV up a block because it is now parked in front of someone else's house. Maybe they saw me taking pictures yesterday morning and got worried I was going to report them. I wasn't even though I thought about (the pics were for the blog). I felt torn- it was an eyesore and annoying to have to hear them coming and going right outside our windows but their "home" broke down and they clearly didn't look like they could afford the drugs they were on, let alone the tow/repair costs to fix that monstrosity.
I'm such a bleeding heart.
Life is just a little bit too much for me lately. I'm hanging in but I am more tired than usual, less witty, less fiesty. I am wearing down. I haven't cried about moving in a week. I think I am repressing my emotions because I've been dealing with other people's feelings more than my own. Or maybe I am coming to terms with the fact that I am shedding this life here in The Cruz like snake sheds his skin. Either way? I need a nap.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006