Saturday, December 10, 2005

Looks Like She Made It

I survived the holiday party last night. I was on my feet for 8 straight hours, not to mention the five hours I had worked at my other job. It turned out good though not as many people as anticipated came to the party. We had way too much food. So much for worrying about there not being enough cream puffs. The DJ was awesome and even the dance lessons went well. I am just glad it is past me and I can focus on my real job, on the holidays and just taking it easy. I couldn't have pulled it off without the help of my dearest chums: Dumpling, Jenny Two Times and Supple. Thanks friends!

Of course, wouldn't you know it? Hospice called gave me an assignment. While I was taking down all the information about the woman I am supposed to visit, I started to panic a bit. Not because I don't want to do it but can I do it? With everything that is going on with work, with the holiday madness, with my upcoming trip. . .how am I not going to lose my mind adding one more thing? I attempted to tell my Hospice supervisor how in overload I am but I don't think I was thinking clearly enough to convey to her that this is not the right time. I should have bowed out and waited untili after the holidays. I am thinking about calling her Monday and saying this isn't a good time for me to take a patient on. I don't want to do it half-assed.

I've been going, going, going that now that I am sitting still, I feel a bit depleted. As much as I have held it together at work, I feel an emotional backdraft coming. As much as I have tried to balance my obligations with my friends and family, I have been neglectful. As much as I have tried to "take care of myself," I haven't been doing a bang up job lately. Time to realign myself and get some rest. Yay for the weekend!

7 comments:

Nihilistic said...

Enjoy your rest! We're going to get us a Christmas tree today...WOO HOO!

Moonchild said...

Relax. Unwind. Take a long bath. Hey, speaking of baths, my new tub is ginormous :) Anyways back to YOU: enjoy, be good. Sip some wine. Light some candles. Drive around looking at Xmas Lights. Snuggle up to a good book. Nap. I am treating myself to the matinee RENT. Thinking only good thoughts for you.

Lizzie said...

Take the weekend to look after yourself. Sounds like you've earned it!

Spanky said...

I'm exhausted the entire month of December, every single year. Parties, shopping, stress, eating--it'll wear you out! Rest up, hon--feel better!

AJ Gentile said...

Sounds like the weekend got here JUST IN TIME.

You need Sangria. Stat.

Bill said...

People are usually in one of two states: trying to do too many things or not doing enough things. We get ourselves all buggered up by thinking there is some nice middle ground - there ain't. At any given time in your life you will be anxiety riddled by having too much to do or not having enough.

Balance is a lie promoted by people who have financially invested heavily into life strategy programs – you know: CDs, DVDs, books, towels, baggy pants and teas.

There is no balance. That’s what makes it all so interesting.

sue said...

Deep breathes, Siz...