Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Split Personality?

I have this hang up. Ok, well I have more than one hang up but we're gonna focus on just this one for now, for today. Most of my life I have been "the funny one." Sure, some might find me attractive or intelligent but my humor usually was the winning ticket. In my 20's, I started to feel as though I was being used as comic relief. I had many friends, some of whom, let's be honest, lacked wit. Sure, they could laugh with the best of them and occasionally retell a joke but to really throw around the one liners, the come backs, to be able to work the room. Nope, they couldn't do it. So they would invite me along and I would entertain.

I've always been a ham. I suppose we can call that Sizzle Secret #5. Even back when I was a wee tot, I would put on a show. My parents would go out for pizza at a local joint in our neighborhood and I would be there, in tow, with my cute outfit on. I particularly remember a fake fur coat in white with brass buttons and a matching hat.Oh and patten leather shoes. They would play songs on the juke box and I would dance. Dance right there in the middle of the local Round Table for everyone to see. And then they would all applaud. I ate it up. I couldn't wait for the next song to play. So I am a ham, a show off, an entertainer. I don't know how not to be.

I worry that people reading my blog might find me a bit manic. Some days I am all funny stories and others, all introspective and serious. I have always wrestled to find the balance with these two sides of my personality. Huh. For a moment right there, I had a Beaches flashback- the scene where Bette Midler is interviewed on TV and she is going on and on . . ." CC is a deep feeling person. She feels things deeply..." At least I am not speaking in third person. (Mr. Rodacre- don't you even start!)

What I am trying to say it, I hope all this seriousness isn't bringing people down. I've got a lot of funny stories in my cleavage (Why store stuff in my back pocket when there is ample room in the rack?) just waiting to be shared when my mood shifts a bit. Just you wait. You should prepare yourselves now for the coming of Gozer. . .Uh, I mean...Fun.

15 comments:

Jenster said...

I wish I had an ample rack to store things in. It can be such a drag having to reach around my ample ass to get things out of my back pocket. ;)

I'm glad to see your spirits have lifted. I just hope you kept your hands and feet inside the ride at all times. :)

Bill said...

I can relate. I tend to be the moody one - though I don't like to think of it as moodiness but more as profound cogitations on the nature of existence (or perhaps that great ass I saw earlier in the day.)

My sister once said to me she had wondered about her husband's quietness then realized, "Oh, he's just like Bill."

I tend to be very quiet, and quietly insert one-liners that (partly because I'm quiet) seem to come out of nowhere. Unless I've had a drink or two, in which case I'm a bit more boisterous.

Mike Meyers once phrased it perfectly. When asked if he was an introvert or extrovert, he said, "I'm a site-specific extrovert." That's sort of how I feel.

Mo-Pie said...

We like both Sizzle's!

Another movie I love... Gozar was very big in Samaria.

Hope said...

Be careful my aunt loses her keys in her cleavage all the time.

I've plenty of room there too but have never been able to stand things poking me.

Her Daddy's Eyes said...

In order to be who we really are, we must feel and think in so many dynamic ways.

~Eyes

Cleavage? Did someone say cleavage?

Jenny said...

we love all parts of you!!!

even the sad, happy, pensive, fiesty, simple parts...

and including the sexy cleavage... :)

whoorl said...

i equally adore both sides of sizzle!

gorillabuns said...

never apologize for writing how you feel happy, sad or funny. i like that you let all sides show. don't stop!

Krisco said...

I'm new here and even I know better. You're funny. You're serious. You're just so you. :)

No worries.

Aimee said...

I can relate a little too well -- I have a number of sides myself, and often wonder about presenting such a wide variety of me's. Which one is really the most accurate? As I think you found, they all are.

But maybe that's what happens when you're a complex person. You can be optimistic, but to always be that way is somewhat unrealistic. You can be witty and entertaining, but even that needs a rest sometimes. And you can be thoughtful and introspective, but at some point you probably want to just live your life, rather than think about it all the time... Right? At least that's what I try and remind myself.

As everyone told Jenny recently, just be YOU and the rest will all fall into place.

sue said...

That's what makes you "well-rounded"... and I'm not talking cleavage, dahling... ;)

goldmoon said...

Love this entry!!! So well put.

And thanks so much for adding me to your links! Does it make me a pathetic geek to say it made my day?

Sizzle said...

You are totally not a pathetic geek for saying so. ;)

Helena said...

Just echoing everyone else's sentiments. I find that people who are all funny, all the time, are not being sincere.

It also gives a real intimacy to know how a blogger is feeling--not just to be told a funny story.

The most candid writers are the ones I love to read again and again.

Penny said...

It is why I am hooked on reading what you have to say...