Monday, October 31, 2005

Trick or Treat?

That is the question of the day. Will it be trick or will it be treat?

Today is The Day. Think good thoughts for me.

Make that- think brave thoughts. Channel your inner Towanda and send it straight on over to me around 9:00 am PST. I'll report, if I can, later today.

This is the first Halloween in my entire life that I have not worn a costume. It is a sad day my friends.

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10:03 am Update:
Here is, in a nutshell, what happened to me.

Last Tuesday, I went to work as usual. My boss, having just returned from being gone for 6 days, wrote me up AND suspended me. From Tuesday at 2:00 pm until this morning at 9:00 am I was not allowed in the office, my keys were taken from me and I had no work email privileges. It was not only humiliating but completely shocking and unfounded. I still believe that the actions taken against me were unwarranted and a complete over-reaction. What could have been a casual conversation became extreme disciplinary action.

I spent the last few days in emotional distress. I pride myself on being a person of character and integrity. How should I act in a situation where I feel so incredibly wronged? I went through all the different reactions and scenarios from wanting to never go back to wanting to yell at the top of my lungs "INJUSTICE!" I landed on being me, save the over-emotionalism and sarcasm.

So here I am, having been so wholly supported by my loved ones and blog friends (yes, you!), a survivor. The meeting between myself and my boss this morning went smoothly. I conducted myself with the utmost professionalism and only shed a couple of tears. I can't say that I am over it. I feel in a way as though I have PTSD. But what I have realized, even though I thought I knew it before, is that I am fierce. I used my smarts and my heart and came out believing more in myself than I ever have. I guess that, for now, is the upside to all this.

It is a survivor's story, yes.

29 comments:

Neil said...

Thinking good thoughts. You can always put on a costume when you get home, for tradition's sake.

Bex said...

good luck, sizz! be strong, i'm rooting for ya.

Lushy said...

Towanda!!!!

Kick some ass, Sizz. I know you will.

Jenster said...

I think I'm the only person who hasn't been able to figure it out. Whatever it is, you are a strong person, and you have integrity. Therefore, no one can beat you down. They can wear you out, but they can't take you down. I have no doubt that you will do the right thing. I'll send lots of positive energy over the hill for you today!

Keep your head up! No matter what, you still rock!

Her Daddy's Eyes said...

I'm thinking of you and KNOW that you'll be strong. You'll get through this with grace and class. BEST of luck! *hugs*

~Eyes

Anonymous said...

go get 'em and holla if you need backup.

j.

Bill said...

Thinking the best ... Towanda!!!!
(I have no idea what that means. Sounds like a town here in Canada, maybe north Ontario.)

bob said...

sending strength and luck your way.

Anonymous said...

I've been thinking of you all morning. Hope it goes as well as it can. However it turns out, it's no reflection on you.

You are awesome. I know it. You know it. Your many admiring fans know it.

b.

Her Daddy's Eyes said...

Still thinking about you! :)

Her Daddy's Eyes said...

SIZZLE!!! Hooray! *clapping. dancing. shaking my arse* I KNEW you would get through it!

:)

Mo-Pie said...

Sizzle, I know that things have been tough lately, but you (as always) came out on top... you are truly a Survivor!

I'm sending you a get better bear (Not just for sore throats anymore).

Moonchild said...

ok. got everything read. BUT what actually happened that warranted the suspension?

still am thinking kind thoughts but there must be something else....

Anonymous said...

a crazy boss with grandiose ideas of taking over the org warranted the suspension.

Bill said...

Fierce is good. And it's great this horseshit is behind you. It must be gratifying to come through feeling stronger.

Wasn't there some saint who, when being cooked alive, said something like, "Turn me over boys! I'm done on this side!"

Something like that. :-)

whoorl said...

sizzle, you ARE fierce. keep moving forward, gaining more and more wisdom as you go...

chin up!

Anonymous said...

The power of one...you did not give up your seat!
You are our inspiration.
m

Neil said...

Sending much love your way. You are strong and will be able to survive, despite the injustice.

sue said...

I am so proud of you for sticking to your guns and going in there chin-up and standing up for yourself. You'd better be very proud of yourself, too. Hope better eating and sleeping is in your future. I'm sure this just wore you to a frazzle.

So, guess no one wins the costume contest... shit. I still say you'd make one perfect Mae West. Attitude and all!

Love ya, Siz...

Melissa said...

Office politics is for those that want to play in the big leagues but haven't got the balls to back it up. Only cowards hide behind shit like this.

Very proud to see you back at it with your head held high, Ms. Sizz.

-melissa

gorillabuns said...

i'm so glad there is a happy ending to this story and you came out the winner!

Jenster said...

I knew that whatever it was, you would prevail. In my experience, people don't get written up without and adult conversation first. And you certainly don't suspend someone unless they've broken the law or something! Your boss sounds like an arrogant jerk. I'm glad you held your ground. It just shows how mature you are. Even if your boss doesn't appreciate you, always know that there are those of us who do!

Way to go Sizzle!

Amanda said...

Yay!!!
You did great!

Alissa said...

Gotta love a fierce woman! We knew you'd pull through with flying colors!

Wombat & Aspen said...

They don't deserve such an exceptional woman, Sizz.

F'rs.



Wombat

GiddyGirlie said...

ok, so I am still all confused, but anyway -- fuck 'em! Sizz is the Shizz!!!

Sizzle said...

yeah, i know. it is confusing. there are so many details i can't really tell but it also shows you how lame this stupid situation is!

Penny said...

I am soo Proud of you for Standing your ground and showing that you are the better person..

I know that you are not big on hugs but here is a big virtual hug from me.. Cause I am a hugger Sorry.. :)

(((HUG)))

Sizzle said...

i LOVE hugs. i just don't like PATTING.

;) Sizzle