Revisiting the Past, Seeing the Future

Tonight I had dinner with my sis and mom at a nostalgic restaurant in Campbell for old times sake. When Dokey (my lil sis, a nickname that has stuck since childhood) and I were young, my mom would take us to El Burro after we got our report cards. Whether we faired well or got low grades (which, luckily, didn't happen too often), my mom would treat us to these mountain high tostadas. No one should have to eat so much lettuce! ;) It was something we always looked forward to and tonight was no different (except for the fact that we had all tacked on about 20 years).

I love spending time with my family. They crack me up. My mom is on this kick of saying "loveyouloveyouloveyou" in this three time sequence. I think it is supposed to be an ode to Molly Shannon a la Saturday Night Live? She met a nice woman at the dog park and they bonded. . .and now my mom has me marrying this woman's son. Yeah, too bad he is living with his current girlfriend. (Is that like the story of my life lately, or what?) And too bad I am not interested as I am on a "Love Sabbatical". Anyhow, it seems that Dokey and mom had a family conference without me because they broke some news to me. My sis and her hubby are moving back to Seattle. I knew this was inevitable as Doke was homesick for the place and neither of them can seem to find a job that will pay them what they are worth. I'm not as sad as I was when they first left a couple of years ago, but still, I AM sad. But now at least the sister of my heart, dear Hillz, lives there too. Multiple people to visit for the price of one ticket!

Oh but there is more. . . Dokey and Robb want to start having babies. I am thrilled to have aunt-dom approaching as motherhood for me is looking like a far-off dream. Sometimes I have baby fever and I get worried. With a baby in the familiy, it will hopefully stave off any iinclinations on my part. My mom, who is anxious to spoil grandkids, has decided that she will also be moving to Seattle in about two years when she retires. They've got it all planned out. . .even up the part where I move there. I love them for wanting me close but am not sure I can commit to that. I am excited for all of them though as these changes seem positive. And who knows, maybe Santa Cruz is just not big enough to satiate me? What happens when I've conquered this town? What next? Am I limiting my personality and my dreams by remaining a big fish in a small pond? It's something I wonder. . .but the answer has not yet revealed itself to me.

Ah, the future, its vast promise intrigues me. . .